swimmy swam

Due to a mix of gender dysphoria and body dysmorphia i havnt been to a pool or anything since i was 14 years old. 

My partner and friend wanted to celebrate their bday together at my partners parents pool. At first i was unsure. But i knew now i feel ok i would regret not going and participate. Due to it being planned a lil last minute i was scrambling and having a hard time to find some kinda swim shorts... to wich a friend offered to help make one w their partner. So i ordered 2 in difr colors, wich got sewn together! 

I went in the pool for hours and had so much fun!! When i got out i was so exhausted LMAO. I had alot of fun :3

Wich reminds me

I should make a folded on pc and save like all pictures for memorys... idk why i havnt done that yet hhh 

 

Weather is finally much better! its around 18 degrees atm yippay.

 

Made a new playlist, just music thats fun? "yaaay happy dance! yahhoo!" idk how else to describe it man lmao. Have a listen :3

 

Im looking at webdev resources again (waw i know), and alot of ppls carrds r so fucking tiny??? I asume this is so it would still look ok on mobile, but my ass blind af and also?? why tf give coding resources on mobile?? IF YA WANNA CODE DO IT ON YA PUTER FFS
Anyway, finally been tryna make my "fun" page. But i got no idea what i wanna do for it theme wise, so layout is hard to figure out aswel. I did recently learn about iframes, so that might come in handy.
I made a recolord ver of my main cursor and figured out how to make it change to teh recolored ver when hover over a link. I feel so ridiculous but it makes me happy to figuire stuff out yippee. Also wanna give some kinda visual input if u hover the navigation buttons

 

Update on spotify, i dont know how?? but the "repeat" icon was turned off, so it indeed only played the playlist once and turned off... 

Gadgets

Ive been using spotify since i was 12 years old... so for 14 years now. For THE LONGEST time i didnt get a sub. But a few years ago i caved. But spotify being evil n all that rly makes me re-consider... + i rly love listening to dj sets wich u can only rly find on yt... but yt also evil... i gues i can start pirating... will take forever... i could get an mp3 if i wanna listen on the road... but i think thas just exitement for "OOOGH NEW GADGET, BUY NEW GADGET YESSS"
However i have been meaning to try and spend less of my day on my pc/online... wich is rly hard due to disability, it being right in front of me on my desk and habit. But i gues having a gadget w music n turning off pc/phone could help. For my bday i gotn acrylic markers and watercolor paint n i still havnt gotten to using it... I wanna just spend more time crafting and arting... but pc/phone is made by the devil and ADHD is its biggest fan. I have been using social media alot less tho. Still dificoultys with instagram... I mainly use tumblr, youtube and neocities nowadays... i gues discord but thas only rly to talk with friends
Im now imagining doing art listening to mp3 and it sounds nice. But i know the actual doing will b difrent lol

My fucking eye is at it again, i wanna gauge it out. 

Ive also been making a new character... Morwyn... should talk ab them on other blog

I FINALLY finished Astras Ref sheet... cough... more or less... i got tired of it and was like "welp, better this then nothing". Theres so many characters in my head, but then actually designing them is so hard... oh Autumn... one day yould be real (Made her when i was like 16... 10YEARS OH LORD). Ok well tbf Autumn started off much difr then she ended up being. Shes suposed to be a butch leaning lesbian, idk how to draw that -insert despair emote-. It is funny that Astra (antagonist of naufragii) got a ref b4 Autumn (mc of naufragii).

How to put a lock on Vinted

Its been multiple times now where im half asleep scrolling on vinted and ending up buying smtg hhh. And like OK theyre never big sums of money sure, but in my proper awake state i usually take awhile to buy something so i can look over and see if theres other options ect...

So recently i bought these LPS stickers, Poodle and Lady bug... sigh. Dont get me wrong, they are things i want! BUT I SHOULDNT JUST BE SPENDING MONEY WILLY NILLY. The stickers are legit, as in they where sold/made by hasbro back in the day. I do want more lps stickers... I have been meaning to try out Wooacry for awhile now, maybe i should just set up a file w only LPS stuff and get it printed trough them.... To test out quality ya kno...
Anyway here is a picture

And last night i ended up buying 3 of those big-ass LPS LMAO
Looking now at the listings they looks so dirty, crying. WHY ARE THEY SO SHINY!?? Maybe i should just use em for repainting. TBF i apparently got them all for 12euro INCL shipping. While usually they go for like 15euro excl shipping on its own. Id love to eventually own more of the big ones! Its rare for a toy line to perfectly scale up their toys without it looking wonky! Awhile back a friend of mine gave me her old collection including the big purple bunny! 
Anyway heres pictures of those i bought

 

I love listening to DJ-sets on youtube. Helps me discover new songs and i like to see the ppl boogy from the corner of my eye lmao. Listening to Bobby Ghanoush playing some city pop (rly nice, def recomend!). However ive never seen? Usually DJs wear a headset or take em off n put em on when switching a song, but they??? have some kinda phone doohickey??? i thought it was a phone but its too long and has some kind of disk that they put to their ear???- holy shit i JUST realized, it IS a doohickey!!! its 1 ear of a headset with a handle, legit never seen anything like that. Not sure if its an actual thing or custom made.
Heres a picture (not from video but shows it best) 

Trans horse-girl Teto? Hell yea

For the first time i tried coding from scratch. Wanted to make my About me page for neocities... and... its going... it looks like ass yea but i made that!! thats my ass!!! its a HUGEEEE wip n i wish i could continue on it but i gotta wrap it up n pack my shit n head to bed bc BORTHDAY PARTY!!!

Heres what i got, friend who done coding in school told me "yea thas how we all start" wich felt validating. I want it to be space/alien themed. Cursor could b a UFO. I just need to remind myself to have fun, its ok if it looks like ass bc im still new to it BUT IM DOING IT!!!

 

And heres a mini inspiration board

 

OH and lastly
Been having this song on repeat LMAO 

i wake up and i wake up and i wake up and i wake up and i wake up and i wa-

I dreamt so weird... i kept waking up irl. But juat fell asleep agqin but it was rly trippy bc 2/3th of tge tine i "woke up" in tge dream thinking its real. But i always realized it was a dream so i forced myself to wake up. One of tge times was rly normal except my granpa was there so "oh im dreaming, hes actually dead". Another time my mom brough kittens (tgere was a rly cute one with long hair, had white n orange fur). Another where i had to hold onto my feont teeth or theyd fall out. And then some whacky ones where i was a server on a sinking ship n my boss abandoned me??? Anotger one i was in a big sparkly dress and had no beard, i wasnt dysphoric... in the dream lol. 

I should write down some things i wanna do (nothing big, but i stilk need to finiah counting stock + had idea to make smtg)

After many years of loving breakcore i finaly made a playlist for it LMAO. Uh if anybody wants to listen u can find it here
Also ended up writing stuff on character blog again. 
Lowkey upset, i orderd touchscreen stylus! They cancelled n refunded! I was exited :^(
Ended up ordering new, should b here tomorow. Also ended up panic buying one of those neck fans for Dokomi... But good investment for other cons too yes... I also have my hand held fan! 
I ate leftovers, it was rice. I heated it up when there was still a bit of ice in it... So it turned out like mush... Tasted the same tho so couldnt complain too much.

 

My Miis (Mika and Acedia) finaly had their baby! Wisteria! 

 

Uh cw for wounds in mouth. Ill again put it between -!!!- Content -!!!-