I set my alarm for my piercing appointment. Im a bit nervous, not for the piercing itself (i mean i have some, and earlobe is like the most nothing burger ever) i just havent rly done anything by myself in a good while. Im exited tho, i hope i can find some cute jewelry (no dw i wont b changing it out asap, i just want some for when i can finally) and a nice top mayhaps?... perchance i get a fancy lil drink teehee :3
Tinitus going crazy rn wah. Im lucky mine isnt constant + most of the time im pretty good at just... letting it be. Its just rly annoying when trying to sleep or overatimulated.
Bc i sleep so incredibly long i usually end up eating smtg half asleep in bed and passing tf out again, otherwise i get nausious. Mostly some bread w peanutbutter or nutella bc is easy. This time i woke up n gran gives me pasta w cheese saus. Im sitting on bed using my desk chair as table bc my table is full w random crap... what a life.
Been looking at whos gonna come to epic doll fair, just regular ppl wise. And its so insane to me that so many ppl ive known for years will go. But im incredibly sad that most of them wont know me. Bc well... besides from transitioning my gender i also changed my online presence. I used to use my ig to post ab anything and thus gained some doll-relates mutuals. Back in the day i was also not a stranger, lots of ppl knew me in the comunity (i wasnt populair by any means, i just did like hyper specific shit that ppl rly liked and that got shared around a shit ton). On the one side i can and will post bjd stuff on my gutsbytes acc. But with the ig tags destroyed i find a major part of the comunity had to change in a way that i dont enjoy. I liked posting a doll, tagging it and evwn after like month ppl came back to it bc of tge tag "whoa i ely lije what u did with this sculpt!"- and u get talking. But now... im not rly one thats great in hufe discord servers, everybody talks over eachother, i often feel ignored or im dying inside bc i convinced myself i somehow broke social rule 101 and now everybody unanimus decided " we gotta blow that guy up" even tho all i said was "waw i rly like the shoes whered u get em?". Or on any social media its more of a "contest" of who gets more likes but once its been interacted with the post dies. I do have gen been enjoying the new forum (hh i supose i just rly miss old internet type of comunity) tho ive also been having a bit of trouble navigating. Im happy they allow more types of dolls but its just a rly huge place now n i get confused lmao.
Oh ye to those curious i din buy the doll btw. Most 80% of the time i juat go kinda crazy, obsess over it and then it dies down. N i try to only buy after it dies down so i know i wouldnt regret it. W this one its def smtg i wanna do in the future! But i wanna first write down my plans for my current dolls. Like each one see if i wanna sell or keep. If keep what i still need to do or get ect. I def wan make a part dedicated to my dolls on my site. For now ill just keep all dolk relates thoughts here... so onto that-
I like looking around and thinking ab what would fit wich of my characters. But i got so sad realizing i likly cant shell a great portion of my characters properly bc a great chunck have bodies that dont rly get made... like Maelle, my beautiful fat sheep las. Like shes not chubby, shes propper fat. Big belly, huge tighs and arms. While yes due to such a body its a bit harder to translate this into plastic and still have it move well... pleny of skinny bjds pose like shit either way. Like the main problem id think of is finding a way to make the fat folds in joints in a somewhat good looking way (good as in when u pose the doll theres no gaping holes) since real fat and skin moves and bends n it dosnt w plastic... one of those metal skeleton silicon bodies would go insane for this actually (i think id legit go crazy for smtg like that). Either way- so far i know of a handful of chubby bodies and just 1 fat one. So def gotta ask in the forum ab resources. Another body would b for Autumn whos suposed to be a strong butch lady, ive found 1 so far... mind u i only rly collect MSD (1/4 size wich is roughly 45cm). I know theres some SD (1/3 size wich is like 60cm) but theyre just too big n heavy for me. Also i wan make clear im not looking for a 1 to 1 of my character, ofc it b cool but thas just not posible. I look for closest resemblence. Like Callisto would realisticly have breast but the doll dosnt.
I have more on mind but i wan continue sleepin...