Bruh i really see like ass, I should get new glasses
I look on pintrest and get so many fun earings shown, i love them but my holes closed... i dont wanna re-pierce them for like a fourth time... My only gripe w earings is that the backing hurts... hhhmm... Partner also wan get smtg in their ears. Once they know roughly when they get surgery we can get them togeter wehehe
Kinda wan get a haircut again... im tryna grow out the sides but i gues i can get the rest a bit shorter... Maybe try bangs? Was also thinking of turquoise, blue and purple dye? However i dont rly feel comfortable at tge hairdresser i used to go to... i felt infantilized... sure he respects my trans identity ig... kinda? However id b looking for a bit of a more fem style... i still get nervous ab "bothering" friends but i will ask one of my friends if they could... hello i know u read this... i blinks my bigs at you...
HHMMM been thinking ab this for a long while, i might get a second cosmetic suitcase. First one my friends got me for my bday! Its rly handy for AA, however i always need extra bags filled w stuff ontop of that... Plus ive gotten a bunch more merch so id need to put that shit somewhere anyways... main 2 "problems": 1 Money, its not cheap and im ab to spend alot of AA already...wuh. 2 space, the one i have is in my room, the other one would not fit... meaning id have to store it outside my room, gran dosnt like that... ended up buying bc it has disciunt of 40€ + it will just benefit me more in the long run.
Ive been wanting to present more fem lately. And i really wanna get a long skirt. Ive been kinda daydreaning ab an outfit i wanna put togeter... kinda twee/apple inspired? So color wise red, brown, yellow and green.
Im just a bit nervous ab accesories/jewelry, ive never really done that? and forsome reasen i get anxious "what if when i wear that outside ppl can tell i dont normally wear this stuff"... like yea ofc that is smtg that will happen... Wich reminds me, i wanna make some kind of vauge "wishlist" for myself, like i just kinda add "cute necklace for xyz outfit" and add a date to it. Bc sometimes i forget i want smtg untill waaaaaaay later ect.
Idk wtf is going on when i sleep or what i dream about? I woke myself up multiple times bc: i punched my wall, i pulled out my charger (no not accidental, i had it gripped), im yelling and i threw my plushie ONTO my desk (i have no clue how like theres is only a very tiny "window" bteween my bed and the desk that it passes trough??). The only reasen i know is bc each time i woke up from it. In the past i have kicked my wall too. Whatever demon is trynna get me in my sleep, look out bc I FIGHT BACK. I felt rly bad ab my plushie tho LMAO
hng... dizzy... din take meds even tho... THEY WHERE NEXT TO MY BED