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Listening to my spotify daylist getting hit with this song and suddenly im holding back tears. Sudenly im 13 again, nervous to start highschool, not knowing who i am, not understanding why im so different... discovering Naruto and relating alot to him. The song is the first ending to Naruto. I ended up watching all 220 episodes and around 200 of Shippuden (Naruto but as a teen) wich yea included the filler episodes (i din know what those where back in the day and had no idea you could skip them) + a good chunk of the movies. So yes save to say i was a huge fan. The only reasen i stopped watching was bc i compleatly forgot wich episode number i was on LMAO. The last i remember watching was Sasuke meeting the one guy that had sharingans in his arms? (Sharingan is like a special power type that shows trough a characters eyes). It was like my first anime (not counting Wolfs rain bc i only watched a singular episode or so) and i was obsessed. I remembered all the characters names and drew My self insert as a Ninja. Sadly this was a period in my life where i didnt realy have friends with my intrests... so i made my poor gran listen to my rambles about the characters and my thoughts on everything. At some point there where some episodes on TV and i still remember... it was Episode 8 to be precise, i made my grandparents and younger brother watch. I dont remember much but it was a sad episode, Gran and brother where crying, i was exited bc that means they like it...
Idk why or even how but i keep waking up around 3am... i dreamed i had magical powers and i made somebody shit their pants?
This year Partner wants me to go to their family NYE party... likly gon have to be a yearly tradition... (despair). But first i have to meet their parents... Well ok i have met them but we where just friends. And so very last second i got invited to my partners (very late) bday dinner to meet them. Might as well bite the bullet bc well.. its to celebrate my partners bday... that happend 2 months ago... Im just rly stressing rn... wuh... Im not gon air dirty laundry that aint mine, but just from what my partner has told me... i dont feel the most comfortable around them. Also the food will be Vietnamese or thai (No Partner dosnt know even tho THEY chose it) and im a bit nervous its gonna be too spicy for my white ass. Besides?? i also am just not a big talker when im eating LMAO
Also some nerves for AA "i wont have enough" bc i made a singular keychain design and 3 stickers.... But i also made several re-usable bags, pencil cases, glasses cleaners and sticker sheets. I need to keep reminding myself to rly just make what im motivated in bc if i try to force like a keychain design i just kinda get stuck and "block" ending up doing nothing...